Thursday, September 29, 2005

Vaughn's Dead

I am in mourning. Tragedy has struck. I think I need to wear black. I just am still shocked and stunned. My love, Michael Vaughn, is dead...and now Sydney is left a single mother.

I'm not sure I can go on living anymore with out my Michael...

What's a girl to do?

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Flies

There is nothing in this life that annoys me like flies. I hate them. I despise them. They really piss me off. They are so dirty and to see them on my food or landing on my trash can is juat so disgusting and I really can't stand it.

Well, we live in Southern California. And I must mention that we are TOTAL cheapskates. So we litterally only had our AC on like 3 days this whole summer. so I know, you are thinking - Screendoors? Right, I know, I'm not an idiot. However, with four kids 3-7 it is IMPOSSIBLE to keep any door shut in our house - not to mention three of them. So I am stuck at home having to deal with the nuciance of flies.

I dawn my trust weapon and spend countless minutes beating the bastards to a pulp. Interestingly enough - over the past two summers I have learned a lot about these beastly creatures and also a lot about my own life through them.

When you kill a fly you have to beat the beegeebees out of that thing. One swat is not enough. For months I would swat adn then scoop the dead carcass into the trash. Yet the next time I scoop another fly into the trash can (like 15 minutes later) three flys would fly out. I realized that these flies are tricky! They play dead. You think you got them with one swat - but no - RESURECTION. They come back. ANd they keep comngback. I once saw a fly buzzing around my kitchen with half his guts literally hanging part way out of his body. So GROSS!

I realized that unless I beat them beyond recognition then they keep coming back. Since learning this lesson the fly situation is still bad - but I do a better job getting rid of them quicker.

I think that's like our sin. It keeps coming back to haunt us over and over and over again, unless we let God take his big swatter in the sky and beat the pulp out of our sinf until we can't recognize it any longer. Only then are we free to live in peace - that is until we open the door again and let more in!

More fly theology later...I need a nap!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

New Look - Part Two

Ok...ok...ok... So Nathan has the black and Steve has the white...so I decided to change my new look to blue. Well...at least for this week!

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Psalm 55 Once Again...

I never thought this verse would come back again and again to comfort me. But this week I have needed it again. Thanks to Dan Allender who pointed it out to me for the first time last February. In this fallen and depraved world I'm sure this will be a life verse I have to cling to over and over again until one day I meet my true friend who never disappoints.

"My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of death have fallen upon me. Fear and trembling come upon me, and horror overwhelms me. And I say, 'Oh that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest; yes I would wander far away; I would lodge in the wilderness; I would hurry to find a shelter from the raging wind and tempest.'...For it is not an enemy who taunts me - then I could bear it; it is not an adversary who deals insolently with me - then I could hide from him. But it is you, a man, my equal, my companion, my familiar friend. We used to take sweet council together; within God's house we walked in the throng...But I call to God, and the Lord will save me. Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved."

Psalm 55:4-8, 12-13, 16, 22

Saturday, September 24, 2005

New Look

Ok...I just needed a fresh start for this blog...and a new look. That green was making me want to puke!

One of these days I'll get a better picture too. More me...not so plastic.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Legalism SUCKS!!!

I've had a REALLY crappy week. Isn't it funny that for some Christians their "standards" for us are higher even than those Jesus Christ himself sets for me.

I was told this week that "Jesus is ashamed of me..."

What do you do with that kind of CRAP? (This is why I hate the church.)

Apparently I am a horrible parent, a drunkard and I have the mouth of a Sailor. But, hey, Jesus loves me this I know...

RIGHT????

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

The Numbers Are In!!!

OK, so we've FINALLY worked out all these medical Bills from my surgery in May. We have been back and forth with Blue Cross becasue they were trying to call this a "pre-existing condition". Well, as it turns out the final bill was: (dun-dun-dun-duuuuuhhhh)

$10,806

Holy, Cow!!!! I am CRAPPING my pants! Can you believe a 90 second barbeque of my uterine lining cost 10 grand? JEEZ!

Well, thankfully, Blue Cross is covering $7961...so that leaves us with the grand total of

$2845

Still a lot of money...but hey, much better than $11,000!

Praise God from whom all blessings flow...